Degree

Hi and Assalamualaikum

It's been a while i didn't jot down something on this blog. Well, i would say that blogging isn't my priorities. Since i entered degree, i started to feel really insecure. I insecure almost about everything. Well, that is so not healthy. Degree life is full of challenges. There was one time, before i entered i was telling myself, i am going to be one of the best student here. It's my second semester but all that seemed to be a little hopeless. Aku macam tak bersemangat langsung nak buat apa-apa. idk why. There is a guy in my class, pandai nak mampus. To be honest, aku memang impressed dengan dia. The way he talked about something, amazed me. Nampak lah dia memang ikhlas nak belajar. Belajar sebab ilmu bukan sebab nak lepas pointer je. Ikhlas. Aku selalu tanya diri aku, mana keikhlasan aku menuntut ilmu. Dari gaya aku, aku memang terpaksa habiskan degree sebab aku dah taktau nak buat apa dengan hidup aku. Sedih en. Dah masuk degree pun taktau tujuan hidup. Ada orang pernah bagitau, nak tahu tujun hidup, kena bercinta dulu. I was like, whut? Dengan hidup aku yang tak tentu arah ni bercinta is not an option. Aku terumbang ambing, ni pulak nak bercinta. Love can wait, but success can't. I got to figure out something. To be the best student, at least ah nak merasa title tu. Insya Allah. Semoga aku istiqamah dengan niat aku. Amin.

hi

P/s; ni post emosional sikit.

Well, i have to admit that i missed you so badly,E. Idk. Moving on is the hardest part to do. It has been months now but still i can't get over you. You look like you are doing totally fine without me. How could you do that? Kau macam tak terkesan pun dengan everything. You knw, you meant the whole world to me. You took me for granted. That what my friends said. Idk benda tu sekadar nak sedapkan hati or what. But still, kau tahu aku tak percaya semua tu en. I know you way better than them. Diaorang nampak apa yang kau buat, but not the true you. Man, this is hard. And i'm making this hard on myself. Look, i'm a kind of girl yang once i fall, i fall hard. There's nothing in between. Fuck this feeling. Lately aku mimpi banyak pasal kau, idk why. But apa yang pasti, it's not a good sign i guess. Sebab in my dream, kau macam cuba untuk menjauh. Contoh aku boleh bagi, kalau aku mai nak duduk sebelah kau, kau akan pindah tempat lain. That's it. I thought bila aku dah kat ump aku boleh lah move on. Mak aih susah babeng. Aku rasa macam nak nangis setiap hari. Maybe this is the price that i have to pay. Ye lah, i gave you my all but then, kau tak pun. Aku boleh terima we are not meant to be together kepe, tapi yang aku takleh nak terima is, kenapa kau macam menjauh? Well, i have a few theories. First, mungkin kau nak bagi ruang kat aku untuk  move on. Kau taknak aku tunggu kau macam orang gila. Secondly, you already have someone else? Hit me with the truths. Kamon, i need answers! Third point, mungkin aku yang beriya. Maigawd putt, berbuih mulut suruh orang give their heart a break kau tu haa, tak reti nak guna nasihat sendiri ke?!

Sigh. You knw, aku tahu apa aku patut buat. Tapiiiii, entahlah nak. Hati aku still takleh nak terima anything. Aku jadi numb and idk. Warggghhhhhh, nak phase ni habis awal :(

Assalamualaikum and Hi

Rindu. Siapa tak pernah ada perasaan rindu enn. Tipu lah kalau takde. Manusia ni penuh dengan emosi. Macam-macam kita boleh rasa. Marah,bengang, happy and sedih. Macam-macam kita boleh rasa. Tapi yang paling tak boleh blah ialah, perasaan rindu. Weh, as i typing this shit, aku rasa skema gila. Ayat tak boleh lagi baku je enn. Lol. Well, i am not expecting someone will read this trash. Kadang-kadang aku macam tak tau nak luah dekat siapa my exact feelings. 'Cause i know no one understands lewl. So yeah, blog is my last resort. Huhuhuhuhuhu. I feel free to share my thoughts or anything cuz it will bring no harm to anyone. So back to my bebelan which is; rindu. Rindu is a very strong word. I can't deny. Perasaan rindu ni boleh datang tetiba je. For examples, kau duduk kat kelas tengah study statistics and suddenly kau rasa lain macam. Hati ni rasa macam tak tenang macam tu lah. Tetiba rasa rindu, Kalau sebut pasal rindu, mesti lah kau tujukan kat orang enn. Ada ke yang rindu handphone dia? Mungkin ada. Tapi more kepada seseorang tu sendiri. It happened to me all the time. Waktu tengah lunch ni pun,adoiyai, boleh pulak rindu kat mama dengan ayah. Jadi apa aku buat bila perasaan tu datang? Haaaa, aku makan dengan sedu sedan. Tahan nangis le,sebabnya aku tengah makan and member kat depan kot,jatuh saham aku. Plus, kalau aku menangis tetiba tak ke pelik? Huhuhuhuhuhuhu. Ye lah,orang semua elok2 tengah makan, suddenly you cry. Aku pun boleh jadi pelik tau.

Tu baru rindu kat parents, belum lagi rindu kat yang tersayang lagi enn. Haaa, ni parah. Bila kau dah start rindu kat someone tu, mula lah mood swing kau mai bagai tsunami and angin kencang ribut taufan semua mai serentak. Member sekeliling pun boleh naik menyampah tau bila benda ni jadi. Aku tak merujuk pada sesiapa. Benda jadi kat diri sendiri so aku boleh faham struggle tu. Hiks. Jadi,apa ubat pada rindu ni. Ceh senang je, dah kalau kau rindu kat someone tu, give them a call. Kalau malu sangat kau text je lah. Kalau nak nampak old skool sikit, kau hantar surat through burung merpati. K, gurau hambar je petang-petang ni. Lol. Kenapa aku came up with this topic? Simply because aku bosan and yeah, aku rindu mak ayah aku. Takde kesayangan lagi alhamdullilah so kasih sayang dan attention aku of course lah 100% kat mama and ayah. Depa patt rasa excited sebab bukan senang aku nak bagi my full attention kat orang. Huhuhuhuhuhu. Okay, itu je kot aku nak taip.

Tschuss! Bis spater!

xoxo;
putt

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

It has been a long time. Man, it is a long time. Well i hope that i can spare some of my time here. Tbh, i do miss writing and sharing my thoughts here. Let's make the 2 years story short. Basically, i have finished my diploma at GMi last year. Alhamdullilah, I graduated with first class honor. Also, my FYP, was a success. There were so much to be thanked for. Family,friends and of course, memories. Ada yang sedih and ada yang happy. Through out my three years of Diploma, i've met lots of people with different backgrounds. Each one of them had taught me many valuable lessons. Also, i've gone through a few heartbreaks too. I thought he was the one,but nah idk. Maybe he was the one, but the time has not come yet. idk, Apa-apa je lah enn. Heartbreaks are is a part of life experiences enn? lol. K let's move on.

Now, i am currently studying at UMP Pekan. Yes people. I'm back in Pahang for another 2 years. I know, semua orang tertanya enn why stuck kat Malaysia lagi. K folks,chill. Here is my explanation. First of all, I applied kat Queensland University in Australia. And yes, alhamdullilah. I got the offer. Unfortunately, MARA have better plan for me. So, they want me to continue my studies kat Pekan, and then only fly to Germany. At first, i was upset. Not just me,my family pun sama. They are all macam berkabung for me. I even cry the whole day sebab kuciwa :( Ye lah, i worked hard to you know to get my ass to Australia. Sigh. But, Allah is the best planner kan? I just put all my trust on Him. Someone once said, "If Allah brings us to it, He will help us through it". Have faith. If Allah wills, insya Allah ke HsKa lew sayaa. Doakan ye. :)

Degree life is much hectic and tunggang terbalik as hell. So different from diploma. Idk about matrics or foundation etc, diploma ni chillax sikit. lol. I'm in my second semester and yet i still struggle to cope with my studies. Well starting is always the hardest kan? This is my second time, being away from my family. Homesick? Not really. Maybe i used to hostel life. I pernah masuk asrama kat Kuantan, remember? XD Well i guess that is it. Nak tulis panjang-panjang macam out of idea. So that was it. Hopefully i will write something on this blank pages. Insya Allah.

xoxo;
putt

Post Ramadhan

Today is the 4th day of Eid. This year, my Eid celebration is not that meriah like before. I've lost the vibes of celebrating Hari Raya. This Raya is not as fun as before. There's something missing. A very important component,that make my Raya,fun and exciting. Opah. The  woman that I love and respect in my life. When she passed away, i know that things would be different. Next, i don't know why this raya is so hambar. I don't feel like celebrating Eid,anyways. Maybe, because of Ramadhan. This Ramadhan is the most joyful Ramadhan. This Ramadhan i feel the joy of doing ibadah. 'Holy month' they said. It made me sad, knowing that Ramadhan this year,is the fastest. Time flies so fast and i can't believe that it actually over for 4 days.I still can't move on. I am going to miss Ramadhan. My sabr were tested during this month and alhamdullilah, i passed. I am excited for next Ramadhan. Till we meet again,Ramadhan :)

Air Terjun Jerangkang,Pahang

Semester 3 has ended for a month now but now only i got the chances to write. This time, our semester break is on Ramadhan and guess what,we are able to fast one whole month at home. Yeayyy. Danke,GMi. :D Past few months was hectic. With all kind of projects that need to be submitted a week before final and etc. It was a stressful week,indeed. We spent the whole week,staying up to finish up the drawings and two other projects. Yes,it was hectic. My classmates were like zombies. Their eyes looks tired,my eye bags is getting bigger (I named it Chanel XD) and the dark circles are obvious. One day,we had lunch together and Ammar said to me; 'Put, jom pergi camping.' As soon as I heard the word 'camping', I was like 'NAKKKKKKK'. Okay Ammar, you've my attention. So they were like planning all those camping stuff. Biasanya for camping,orang akan plan 2-3 bulan awal. But not for us. We planned 3 weeks earlier kot. Then, Nisa buat research on the venue while me,kutip duit macam along. Muehehehe. The boys tak kisah venue kat mana-mana pun as long as the place ada air terjun. So,we (girls) have to decide. We chose Jerangkang Waterfall in Pahang. Barang-barang camping we let the boys to handle. Aku kalau boleh nak bawak TV dalam hutan. LOL. Our trip is on 15 May to 17 May. 3D2N. 18 people. Teheeeee.

Subhanallah. Lawa kan tempat ni? Oh yeah,kalau nak masuk sini,kena guna 4WD. Masa perjalanan dari main road ke air terjun ni,takes an hour. Yeshh,kena naik 4WD. Jalannya,ya Allah, berliku-liku, heheeee. I can't take my eyes away from looking at the air terjun. Lawa and indah. Udara dia,segar. Different from the city. It's quite relaxing jugak,cause you're surrounded by nature. Panas pun tak,just nice. The waterfall was superb! If you are a nature person,Jerangkang Waterfall should be in your list! A must-go destination. Highly recommended. 

We arrived at Jerangkang around 7.00p.m. Basically, dah gelap lah waktu tu. Kami gagahkan juga diri ni mendaki dalam gelap. It was fun,tho. Masing-masing macam kekok. Dah lah tak nampak apa-apa.  After one hour,we made it. Teheeeee. The boys pasang khemah,while me and the girls, chillin' like a Queen B :D No lah,the girls gigih hidupkan api,tapi api tak menyala pun. :( Last-last, Aril dengan Acap tolong hidupkan. Mueheheheee. 

The next day, baru nampak everything. Our surrounding and baru perasan yang sebelah khemah aku ada sungai. Wuuuuuu. Heheheee. Pagi-pagi,Akim and the others memancing kat sungai sebelah tu. Syok gilaa. Macam-macam gaya diorang buat. Lulz. Naim,me and Kak Ecah prepare the breakfast. :D 

The best part of the camping,of course,mandi air terjun. Seronok gila. Everyone enjoys swimming, eventhough some of them didn't know how to swim, But it was fun tho. The water is fresh and cold. The moment i get into the water, i got brain freeze. Brain freeze pun, aku berendam berjam jugak kat dalam tuu. Seronok. Cold water + superb view + fresh air = Heaven.See,Ejat seronok duduk dekat air tu. Muka bahagia je.  XD

That night,we had BBQ partayyyy XD Just a simple BBQ party. We have chickens, mushroom soups, maggi, smoked potatoes,coleslaw and many more. My stomach was full but still,I can't stop myself from eating. Dari awal hingga akhir aku paling banyak mengunyah :D We played Truth or Dare game. Haha. Muka masing-masing dah cuak dah bila kena. Majority picked 'Truth' and most of their 'dark secrets' finally revealed on that night. Hahaha. Jangan risau,I won't let the cat out of the bag. Bila dah tak tahu nak buat apa, we sang together. Ejat main gitar and the rest nyanyi macam tengah hutan ni kitaorang punya. :D 

Tengah-tengah aku melayan perasaan kat tepi sungai sorang-sorang, Ejat suruh kumpul. Dia kata malam ni,malam terakhir kat situ,so kononnya dia nak spent masa bersama-sama. Ceh,ayat dia memang taknak kalah. At first, I was curious. Gila ke apa, pagi-pagi buta suruh gather. Memang sah takde keje. Lepas semua orang kumpul,Ejat ambik gitar and suddenly, they sang a birthday song for me. T.T Wuuuuuu, terharu gilaaa. That time i was so speechless. I don't know how to react. So what I did was,berdiri and sengih sorang-sorang. Huhuhuhu. I was touched (ceh) Yeayyyy,thank you to all of them,for remembering my birthday. This is the first time I celebrate my birthday dalam hutan with all these amazing people. Again, danke schon. :D

On 17th May,we spent our last time at the air terjun. Semua orang muka macam sedih. Ye lah, kena balik GMi dah. Nak kena hadap projek yang tak sudah-sudah. The perks of being an engineering students. Sis redha. Pakcik Jefri (4WD guy) picked us up at 12 pm. Lepas keluar dari kawasan Maran tu,we were heading to Temerloh. Pekena Ikan Patin Masak Tempoyak. Pergghhh. Ikan patin at Go Bang restaurant is the best in Pahang. Man, the fish is fresh and the tempoyak is spicy just the way i like it. Aku makan sampai berpeluh-peluh. :D It was fun tho, spending our weekends at Jerangkang. A short and yet sweet getaway. Maybe next time,I'll come again. InsyaAllah. 

p/s : I'm looking forward for our next trip dear classmates :D

Pisang

There is a girl, who loves to mess around her favorite man. She just can't make herself stay still whenever he is around. He seems to get used to this pathetic girl. He knows her very well. Her laughs, her sorrow, her insecurities, her dreams, her favorites, everything about her inside and out, he knows. That is what makes her love being around him. His smile could make the world stops. The only man who can make her feel safe in his arm. The one who is truly understands what she had been through. The one who will always lend his shoulder for her to cry on. The one who always wipe her tears using his rough fingers. The one who knows how to bring out the best of her. Also, the one who will always call her on Sunday and say ‘Kakak dah makan?’ The best man I’ve ever known in my life. Ayah. My favorite man.

Sem 3 is totally driving me crazy. Projects, assignment, drawing yada..yada..yada.. make it all worst. Since that I rarely got the chance to chill at home, Ayah decided to 'abduct' me while i'm working on my  English project. It was a sweet escape though. Finally, I am able to be free from all sorts of projects. He took me to my favorite place and we had our lunch. It was rainy that day, which makes me feel a bit emo,idk why. Maybe I was longing for this moment for a very long time. We talked a lot, like  always. Some random stuff, a little bit about Kiki and Kiko, his pokok pelam that never grow, our neighbor next door and many more. He told me that he bought me some chocolates and how he managed to finish up his work in a few hours. Yes, I like that kind of conversation with Ayah. It never bores me. We laugh hard while enjoying our ABC. Damn it was fun.

‘Ayah nak pisang’ I said. He just nodded and drive. We talked and talked until we found a few groceries shops near UKM. It was raining heavily. At first,I wanted to buy the bananas myself, but he insisted to buy. ‘Nanti demam’ he said. Without covering his head with anything, he ran across the street and entered the shop. A few minutes later, he got back into the car with the bananas. His shirt wet, but he don’t mind as long as I get my bananas. That was sweet,Ayah. I do appreciate that. Our sweet escape ended the moment he sent me back to the hostel. 

Maybe it is true. Parents’ love for us is more than enough. Their love is like  'menatang minyak yang penuh’. Hope that I can be like Ayah one day. My favorite man, now and always, Ayah. :)

Teacher Wan

My mom reminds me of one of my favorite teacher in Kuantan. Teacher Wan. Back in Kuantan, whenever i missed home i always look for teacher Wan. I don't know the exact reason why i will look for her but she is the first person i will look for. I just want to look at her face and have some good conversations. Like talking to my mama. The first time i met her, when i was in form 4. I'm new to that school so yeah, homesick is kinda my thing. I could still remember my first class, which is English. To be frank, i hate this subject. I have some kind of issue to deal with English. Yepp, the grammar, the past, present, future and everything about english i just hate it. But see now, i write my post mostly in English. Thanks to this teacher. She change my perspective towards english. Well, now only i know that english is not that bad though.

What i like about teacher Wan is she is just like my mother. Her face, i swear she looks almost like mama. How i cannot miss home? She acts,speaks and treat her students just like a mother. I never met a teacher like her. Oh wait, no. She's the second teacher. The first was Puan Najimiah. My BM teacher back then in Seksyen 3. Hmmmmm, i wonder how Puan Najimiah doing right now? Still mendidik anak bangsa, cikgu? Teruskan perjuangan cikgu :) 

I could still remember the day, when she asked me to join the debate team, i was like nooooooo. I totally have no idea why i'd been chosen to join the team,but i just don't want. She keep on saying 'cmon putri,just give it a try. i swear you won't regret it.' She was right people. She made me change my mind and i joined the team. It's just for internal competition duh. Well, at least, i had fun. Debate is cool you know.  You argue based on facts, not just what we called that oh 'cakap kosong'. Unfortunately, i was not selected for the external competition. It's okay. At least i got some experience from the internal competition. And it was precious. 

When i was in form 5, writing essay was a big deal for me. I just don't know what to write on this three blank pages. I started to give up on my english. I was hoping i will get B for SPM. And again, teacher Wan was there to rescue me from giving up. She helped me a lot for my essay.She helped me from scratches. I, sometimes think that she spend most of her time checking my absurd essays rather than spending her free time chilling with her friends in Bilik Guru. She said with a smile on her face "it is my duty to help you to do better. And I believe you can excel this subject. I trust you Putri" That touched the core of my heart. Even when i was on my semester break, i would email her my essay. She corrected and send back to me. Thank God I got A for English. Teheee.

I was shocked when i received news saying that her son,Izzat, had passed away. I couldn't imagined how broken she is right now. I know she loves Izzat so much, that's what mother do right? Giving love to her children unconditionally and passionately. She would give everything she had just to make sure her son is getting better, I don't know what to say to her. I was speechless. Losing a child can change someone's life. Forever. I really hope that you will always stay strong,teacher. She used to tell me a lot about her son,Izzat. The naughtiest and hyper little kid. I never met this little boy, but i am sure that he used to make his mother smile even on rough days.  May Allah grant you Jannah my little Izzat. Amin. 

I started to question every single thing that happened to me lately. WHY? This word lingering in my head for months. Till now, i still have no answer for that. Why everything started to fall apart? Everything.Like,the friendship that we've build for years, seem to break into pieces. I just don't understand. Why all of the sudden, kawan? Why do you keep yourself away from me? Tell me. I'm eager to know.

I was depressed,of course. I used to lose my friends a long time ago. It hurts like hell. I can't even bear with the pain that running inside me. It's killing me slowly. And again,i was depressed as hell. Since then,i tried my best to avoid that from happening again. I even draw lines, to make sure that no one will ever cross the lines.

The feeling of losing friends, scares me. But when i met them, everything changed. It changed my world,like forever. They gave me something that no one could ever gave to me,no not even my parents. A true friendship that i could never ask for. And it was the best thing i ever had in my life.

I thought that was it. The 'losing friends' phase has gone but i was wrong,again. This thing is happening to me right now. Maybe, it's a part of growing up. You'll start to lose people in your life, even the ones who give you something precious. So i guess it's the time for me to grow up.  

Danke für die Erinnerungen lieben Freunde. 

I wanted to write something encouraging to pick myself up. but I'm tired of lying to myself. Saying that "I'm okay" with a fake smile on my freaking face,when the truth is, i am not okay.

So what if I'm broken? No ones care, though. Not now ,not tomorrow.I will pick up the pieces tomorrow, next week or even next year. There is no expiry date in fixing yourself. It is an ongoing process. Who cares if you have been broken for too long? Maybe you are meant to be beautifully broken. Have you seen shattered glass, people? I think that they are beautiful.

Maybe it is okay to admit that you are lonely or scared or sad or angry or whatever you are feeling right now. Maybe this is the time for you to acknowledge your feelings. Then, you can do something about it. 

Seriously, we are human. You are allowed to feel all sort of feelings on this pathetic world we live. Just remember one thing,never forget to feel happy too. 

Assalamualaikum

Alhamdullilah. The semester break is finally come to an end. I had so much fun during my semester break. My holidays are well spent with my beloved family. Nothing better than spending your time with your family. My family are my everything. Someone once told me 'people come and go, but family stays no matter what'. Hands down,i'm agree to this. And i know, they all love me, no matter how annoying, cheeky and sarcastic i am. Annoy my siblings is a part of my job as a sister. I can't stop myself from kacau them all day.

And there's Iman,making faces when i told him i don't want to treat him ice cream. Eleh, jet jet comel je dia ni. The truth is, he's cute. Warrrgghhh. Haih. Be a good boy eh Iman. And don't eat too much ice cream tau.

I'm going to miss the moment i spent with my family. Sigh. Three weeks were like three minutes. Time flies so fast and yes,i'm getting old. Can't believe i'm nineteen. The last year of being a '-teen'. And yes, i'm going to start my job as semester 3 students this monday. I try to be excited to enter the new semester. InsyaAllah,i will try to be a better student.

So, i guess that's it. Toodles!

District 21:Enter At Your Own Risk

Assalamualaikum (:

Have you guys ever been to IOI City Mall? The one that located at Putrajaya? Well,you should get your ass there,fella. The mall is quite big and there are hell a lot of foods that you can find there. You can eat to the fullest,if you want to. :D So,what draws my attention in IOI City Mall? Besides ice skating (which i don't know how to skate) there is a theme park inside the mall. District 21. It is an indoor park where you can do some exciting stuff. Exciting stuff like wall climbing, pump track, free fall, the maze and many more. What are the attractions in District 21?

• Roller Glider – A world’s first attraction, a mix of zip line and coaster with applied G-force.
• Power Station – Similar to rock climbing but you’re climbing walls

• Go Pedal – Human-powered karts like Go Karts but you need to pedal yourself. Hmm..

• Pump Track – A course of bumps, jumps and berms (?) designed to allow you to ride continuously without pedalling. You can choose to use a bike, scooter or skateboard.

• Sky Trail – The largest indoor rope challenge course in Malaysia that offers 23 elements of varying difficulty.

• Low Ropes – For younger visitors, it’s a scale version of the Sky trail.

• Launch Pad – It’s a huge trampoline where you can play, jump and practice your slam dunk.

• The Maze – A place where you need to navigate through a vertical labyrinth of tunnels, cages and funky challenges. The maze is enclosed so no harness is needed. Some spots are 10m high.

• Free Fall – Gives you the opportunity to experience free fall like jumping out of a plane or doing a parachute jump.

• Tubby Ride – Sit on a tube and slide down a slope, the feeling is similar to sliding down a snow bank during winter.

• Carousel – the standard stuff, you know this already. 

(source; lifeinmy.com)

Source : Google Image

I've been longing for this kind of activities for such a long time. The last time I had this kind of activity was like 2 years ago,when I was in Kuantan. The activities inside this park is suitable for all age. The normal price for the ticket is RM75 per person. Luckily, I got only RM55. Because it's pre-opening. The price (for me) is affordable. You'll be provided with a pair of gloves and a pair of socks. Yes,you can take them home.Teheee. Oh oh,make sure you wear shoes eh. No slippers are allowed.

The best part of this park is,the ticket is valid for one day. Yes. One whole day. You can stop for lunch and solat, then you can come back and continue playing in the park under one condition. Do not take off your wristband. Or otherwise, you are not allowed to enter the park again. The park is open daily at 10 am to 10 pm. So,you can spend the whole 12 hours playing in the park. Main sampai lebam. Haha. No worries guys. You'll safe equipped. They also will provide you safety equipment for each activity. Crews that handle each activity are well-trained. So, play with no worries! 

The activities is not just exciting and fun,it also boost your self confidence. Yes. Self confidence. You can overcome your fear. As for me,it helps to overcome my fear of height. Yes,I'm afraid of heights. But hey,I managed to overcome this thing. (a big clap for me). Moreover, you can train your brain to concentrate during the activities. And many more. So,give it a try guys! It worth your money. :D

Assalamualaikum 

Well i guess, i don't have a valid reason why i didn't put a title for this post. I just don't know why. It had been a while,quite a while since my very last post. The last time i post on this blog was like 2 months ago. Aigoo, it's quite long. I don't feel like writing or talking crap anymore on this blog. I literally have lost my interest in writing. Why? Simply because i have no idea what to share. Nothing fun and nothing interesting to be shared with you guys. Nahh, i rather keep my story to myself. 

I decided to give a little make over for this blog. Just a little changes that's all. I love the new make over. Simple and plain. I don't like fancy stuff by the way. Also, i have deleted some of my posts. I don't know why the hell i'm telling you this,but it seems that i'm running out of idea. Previously, i have about 120 posts on this blog. Now, only 33 remaining. That's more i like it. 

I won't write often. My schedule is like hell. Packed with all kinds of subjects. Assignments. Projects and so on. I don't even have time for myself (ok,this is the biggest lie ever) I do have time to play games and sleeps, but i got no time to spend with my friends. How pathetic is that? Maybe, during this semester break i get the chance to write (depends on my mood) 

I guess that's it. Nothing more to write, I'm so out of idea. Till we meet again peeps! 

Whatever

Assalamualaikum (:


Hv you ever been in a situation where people misjudging you? Well,i've been in this situation for years since i was in primary school. Misjudging me about what? Well, MY.FACIAL.EXPRESSION. Seriously? Serious. Aku pun tak faham kenapa orang selalu sangat misjudged my expression. Sometimes, bila aku jalan sorang-sorang, dengan buat muka biasa-biasa je, oranc cakap aku in a abd mood. WHAT?!! Yes, bad mood. See,that's why aku tak faham. Tak faham manusia ni nak apa sebenarnya. K,over. Oh cmon! Bukan tu je. Ada satu hari tu,aku macam diam je seharian. Diam bukan bermakna aku sedih, moody or whatsoever. It's just,I want to be quiet,for that day. But when aku diam macam tu,orang sekeliling aku buat teori Einstein diorang. Bukan satu teori je,10 teori tau,i tell you. Haha. Itu lawak. Dah lah teori yang diorang buat tu tah apa-apa. Mengarut je lebih. Haha. Tapikan, walaupun teori diorang tah pape,that shows they actually 'notice' me. Hahahahahaha.

Oh ye. Roomate aku pernah cerita kat aku when she first time met me. Ok,kita buat throwback sikit. The first time she met me, dia cakap aku sombong. Well,that's the impression that people made on me. Dah bosannnnnnn. Dia pun cakap yang aku ada 'stay away from me' and 'mind your own business madafaka' aura when they met me. Bhahahahahahahahahahhaaa. Tidak kah anda fikir ini sangat lawak. Sokay lah. Manusia. Suka judge orang terlalu awal. When they get to know me, diorang kata aku gila. Otak senget and etc. Haha. See? Orang yg kononnya ada 'stay away from me' and 'mind your own business madafaka' aura ni tak de ahh sombong mana kann. Haha. Kbaii. 

Struggle

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I believe that everyone of us has their own struggle in life. Well,same goes to me. I have been struggling the same thing for years. Self-criticism. Stage four self-criticism. Parah? Parah. But it's okay. Walaupun aku punya self-criticism sangat tinggi,but i still can think rationally. I didn't cut myself or take drugs or smoking and yada yada yada. Thank you Allah,for giving me a friend,yang always there for me whenever i'm down. I knw it sounds cliche,but hey that's the truth. Self-criticism dah mcm a disease dalam badan aku. Tapi lately,alhamdullilah. Makin berkurang. Maybe because i get boring asyik kritik diri sendiri jaa.  And tadi i was on my roller coaster mood. I wassap a friend of mine to have a lil chat.

So yeah. You know that life is not easy as we expected it would be.  Like what teacher Wan said " The mixture of pain and happiness,challenges and tribulations,makes life never easy. And because of that we know that we are alive. " and i agree with you teacher!

Salam Ramadhan :)

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It has been a long time kan,aku tak mengupdate blog kesayangan nih. Dah rasa rindu gila nak menaip berjela-jela,pastu mengarut sikit,pastu cakap merapu bagai. Bhahaha. Sumpah rindu semua tu. Tapi,nak buat macam mana kan,iolls busy ahh. By the way,aku ni dah 2 minggu sebenarnya terperap dekat rumah ni. Maklumlah,baru lepas habis final kan.  *yeay* :3 Haha. Tamat sudah perjalanan hidup aku as a Sem 1 student. In two weeks time,I'll be Sem 2 student. InsyaAllah. Sementara nak tunggu cuti aku habis,aku dok melepak je lah dalam rumah ni. Niat nak kuruskan sikit badan ni haaa. Nampak gayanya,tinggal angan-angan je lah. Macam biasa. *peace* Duduk rumah,memang makan,tidur,makan,tidur je ah keje aku. Lulz. Nampak tak produktif langsung. Alahai. Oh ye,lupa nak ucap,Selamat Berpuasa ye kepada semua umat Islam di seluruh duni. Ecehceh,gaya aku dah macam retis dah,bagi ucapan bagai. Haduui. So,I'm gonna spend 2 weeks fasting dekat rumah. Then,another two weeks sambung dekat GMI then,tadaaaaa,RAYA >.< Hehe. Oh ye,dalam bulan Julai ni kan,ramai kawan-kawan aku yang dah sambung belajar. Goodluck ye kawan-kawan. Tuntutlah ilmu sebanyak mungkin. Ecehceh,apsal dengan aku nih? -,- 

Gembira aku dengar kawan-kawan aku dok cerita pasal U diorang. Ye lah,depa masuk U yang,pergghhh, very the high class. Eleh,aku pun high class jugak ann. GMI tuuuu,German lagi. Kau hado? Lulz. During the breaks,keje aku dekat rumah is mengemas dan memasak. Wahwah,dah boleh jadi calon isteri dah aku ni. Phuiii,dah start melalut dah aku ni. Adoi. Haha. Memasak ala kadar je. So,yeah. I guess I'll write more in the future. Assalamualaikum (:

College Life

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Oleh kerana sibuk dengan tugasan yang menggunung,mengupdate blog merupakan sesuatu yang teramat malas sekali aku nak buat. This week,is the most hectic week evah! ( lol,so far). Why do I say so?? Hmmm. 2 projects need to submit by this week. 2 beb! Dua. Itu tak termasuk dengan pbl pre calculus lagi. Haaa,dengan summary english lagi. Oh yea,essay lagi. Practical lagi.Warrgghh. Banyaknya. Satu je conclusion aku dapat buat from this thing. Never do last minute work. And yes,aku buat benda tu. Last minute is my forte. Shoot! Haha. Tanggunglah kau put weii. Siapa suruh buat kerja last minute kann. Haa,padan lah dengan muka aku sendiri. But,i don't mind. Dah biasa. Bhahaha. Rh,eh. I baru habis practical grinding tadi uollszz. Haha. Satu beban dah takde. Boleh relax sikit. Memang waktu practical tadi, terhegeh-hegeh dok mencari suis,nak hidupkan mesin grinding pun setengah jam. Haha. Lawaklah aku ni.  So,after siap project grinding aku,we took selfies! Bhahahaa.

See? Muka eksited gua lepas habis practical. Haha. Paroh dah gini. Muka stress cari suis mesin. Haha. Hope dapat full marks for this project. Kalau tak,sia-sia jeh aku ambik masa setengah jam cari suis mesin tu. 

New Beginning

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How are you dear bloggers? It has been quite a long time I didn't update my blog. Sorry people! I'm kinda busy with my assignments,discussions,projects and etc. Sigh. Okay whatever. Last Monday,as usual, aku ada class for that entire MONDAY. Duhhh. Penat memang penat,but hey,I enjoyed my classes that typical Monday. Haaiihh. Nak dijadikan cerita,hari Isnin tu,ada kelas Communication and Presentation Skills. It is one of my favorite class. Yeay! Nak tahu sebab apa? Sebab,I can improve my communication skills and also,of course,my ENGLISH. Duhh. Memang nazak dah bak hangg English aku ni. Haha. But itu bukan benda yang aku nak share kat sini. My TTO,Miss Norazita (if you're reading this Miss,I just wanna say Hiii!) , ada cerita pasal HOW TO BE FASCINATING. Haha. Miss cakap, orang yang banyak membaca is very fascinating. I was like,REALLY MISS? Then,Miss pun bercerita pasal students-students dia. Waktu dia rancak bercerita tu,it makes me thinks of how awesomenya jadi budak yang banyak ilmu pengetahuan. Ye lah,membaca kan meluaskan pengetahuan. It makes me thinks again,I want to be AWESOME too. But first,aku nak cari hobi baru. Entah lahh,aku dah lama meninggalkan hobi aku. Apa hobi aku dulu? Hmmm,aku suka bertukang. lol. aku buat lawak jeh. Entah lahh,dah lupa dah. But now,aku nak buat something that is unique. Miss pesan before habis kelas haritu, " STUDENTS,BE UNIQUE." So,there you go. Aku nak sahut seruan miss tuh. hoho :D

Personal Thoughts

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Hi! Okay,lama giler aku tak update blog kesayangan ni :D Hehe. Sorry,aku malas + tak tahu nak update pasal apa. Heheee. Lately,ramai orang tanya aku on social website pasal life at college.Diorang suruh aku share sikit college life aku.Terasa feymes kejap. *lol* Teheeee. Mereka-mereka ni sangatlah caring pasal aku. Terima kasihhh! Terima kasihhhh!~~~ Sayang korang. Hmmmmm, where to start ehh? Oh yeah,kita pergi part by part ahh. Senang sikit  :3 Oh mannn! There are tons of things I wanna to tell you guys!

1. Environment
So this is the very FIRST thing that I would like to share. Environment dekat college aku ni,well, 9/10. Aku suka scenery dekat sini sebab kolej aku terletak betul-betul atas bukit. So,pagi-pagi memang ummmppphhhh! Sejuk gilerzzz. Haha. Menggigil aku pagi-pagi buta. >.< As you guys know,dekat kolej aku,populasi Kaum Adam mendominasi kawasan kampus. Why? Sebab,kursus-kursus dekat sini semuanya technical-based. Kaum Adam kan memang suka benda-benda teknikal ni.So,sesiapa yang pilih kolej aku ni,jangan terkejut lah kalau depan-belakang-kiri-kanan-atas-bawah semuanya kaum Adam. Aku ambik masa jugak ah nak adjust mata aku ni. Ye lah,dekat sekolah dulu,kaum Hawa yang dominate sekolah, sekarang ni,lain pulak jadinya. Haha. Kat hostel,ada 2 kafe,satu untuk kaum Adam,satu untuk kaum Hawa. But no surprise,kalau dekat kafe perempuan ada kaum Adam. Sesungguhnya mereka sangatlah ramai. >< Oh yea! Dekat sini,aku jarang terserempak dengan kawan-kawan yang dari department lain. Jarang gila-gila terserempak dengan diorang.

2. Friends
For your information,aku ni bukan lah jenis yang cepat sangat buat kawan. Memang takkk. Ambik masa jugak aku nak berkawan dengan orang ni. Tapi apa-apa pun,alhamdullilah,I've made a few friends. And yeah,most of them are boys. Jangan tanya kenapa ehh. My classmates ada 22. 12 BOYS and 10 GIRLS. The most important thing is,diorang semua HAVOC :D Otak pun gila-gila! =) Aku bersyukur sangat dapat classmates dari pelbagai background. Aku ambik diploma,so my classmates ada yang dari MRSM and IKM. Yang bestnya,bila dapat classmates from IKM ni,diorang very helpful. Diorang selalu tolong kitaorang especially in handling machines. Fuhh,diroang terer gilaaaa. Maklumlah, diorang dah biasa dengan mesin kat IKM dulu. What is IKM? IKM stands for Institut Kemahiran MARA. Aku pun tengah 'cuba' bergaul dengan senior-senior dekat kolej kau ni. Diorang pun very the sporting. So,I really hope that I could make more friends here. Bak kata pepatah,berkawan biar seribu,berkasih biar satu.

So,that's all. I wanna to live my college life. Doakan aku berjaya ehh. Teringin nak tengok mak dengan ayah aku gembira bila dapat sijil graduation nanti. InsyaAllah. Amin.