hi

P/s; ni post emosional sikit.

Well, i have to admit that i missed you so badly,E. Idk. Moving on is the hardest part to do. It has been months now but still i can't get over you. You look like you are doing totally fine without me. How could you do that? Kau macam tak terkesan pun dengan everything. You knw, you meant the whole world to me. You took me for granted. That what my friends said. Idk benda tu sekadar nak sedapkan hati or what. But still, kau tahu aku tak percaya semua tu en. I know you way better than them. Diaorang nampak apa yang kau buat, but not the true you. Man, this is hard. And i'm making this hard on myself. Look, i'm a kind of girl yang once i fall, i fall hard. There's nothing in between. Fuck this feeling. Lately aku mimpi banyak pasal kau, idk why. But apa yang pasti, it's not a good sign i guess. Sebab in my dream, kau macam cuba untuk menjauh. Contoh aku boleh bagi, kalau aku mai nak duduk sebelah kau, kau akan pindah tempat lain. That's it. I thought bila aku dah kat ump aku boleh lah move on. Mak aih susah babeng. Aku rasa macam nak nangis setiap hari. Maybe this is the price that i have to pay. Ye lah, i gave you my all but then, kau tak pun. Aku boleh terima we are not meant to be together kepe, tapi yang aku takleh nak terima is, kenapa kau macam menjauh? Well, i have a few theories. First, mungkin kau nak bagi ruang kat aku untuk  move on. Kau taknak aku tunggu kau macam orang gila. Secondly, you already have someone else? Hit me with the truths. Kamon, i need answers! Third point, mungkin aku yang beriya. Maigawd putt, berbuih mulut suruh orang give their heart a break kau tu haa, tak reti nak guna nasihat sendiri ke?!

Sigh. You knw, aku tahu apa aku patut buat. Tapiiiii, entahlah nak. Hati aku still takleh nak terima anything. Aku jadi numb and idk. Warggghhhhhh, nak phase ni habis awal :(